What are your feelings on Christmas?
I'll be honest. I dislike most things that go with this holiday. I'm a mixture between Scrooge and the Grinch. I'm not greedy and selfish like Scrooge but I have his attitude of Bah Humbug. I won't try to steal away your Christmas like the Grinch but I agree with his statement about the "Noise! Noise! Noise!"
I just plain don't have the Christmas spirit in me. It's something I have to work on to bring out. Everything stresses me out and stress makes me not feel well. This Christmas there was other stresses going on that weren't about Christmas but just bad timing. But I still am not fond of Christmas.
Don't get my wrong.. there are moments I love. Like laughing with my sisters and family, seeing my nieces and nephews grow up, and seeing people open the gifts I bought. The thing I hate the most is wrapping the gifts. The thing I love the most is seeing their face when they open it and they truly love it.
There were a couple times this past weekend that I'd slip away to a back bedroom and just lie down. It didn't get me completely away from it all but I was able to relax and shut my brain off a little.
I can't tell you how many times my fiance has said "It's Christmas! Get in the Christmas Spirit!" And I don't remember which time it was when it finally hit me.. what is Christmas spirit?
I started to focus more on the real reason for the season. Yes, I know, it's not about gifts and Santa. It's about the birth of Christ. I've known that as long as I've been alive BUT I don't know if I've honestly ever thought about it.
My favorite holiday is Easter. I absolutely love it. The way most people feel about Christmas is probably the way I feel about Easter. Why do I love Easter? Because that is when my Savior conquered death and made it so I could have life. Eternal life. Oh my goodness! Just the thought of it makes me want to jump up and yell "whoo hoo!" Without Easter (Christ's resurrection), His life and death mean nothing.
As I was analyzing Christmas I swear God said, "Guess what, Amanda, Christ could not conquer death if He didn't die. And Christ could not die if he was not born."
"Duh!" I said to myself.
Seems simple doesn't it? I always knew it but it's taken 32 years to put it in my heart and to REALLY know it.
We sang a song in our church Christmas program. Think about these words. "Such a wonderful Savior to be born in a manger so that I can share His favor and my heart be made anew." Did you get that? Christ wasn't just born and that's the end of the story. He was born a very low birth. He is God who humbled himself to become one of us. He wasn't born in a home or hospital. He was born in a stable and laid in a manger! Is there any other time in history that that has happened? I'm sure there's women who have given birth in crazy places like cars but it wasn't like this. It also says He was born so I can share in His favor and my heart be made new!
Why was Christ born? So that He could die. Were we born to die? No! We were born to live. He was born for a very specific purpose. And He knew it too. I can't grasp that!
There is a lot more we could say about his birth and the miracles that surrounded it. But I just want to stay on that fact. Christ was born that lowly birth for us. For you. For me.
Here's another song we sang: "Start at the manger, at the Child in the hay, the gift of our Father in heaven, the price He would pay to save all His children, no matter the cost." No matter the cost! That baby lying in the manger in the hay was a gift to us. It should be our most precious gift because He would pay the price for us. Who? His CHILDREN! Isn't that amazing?!?
"Start at the manger where redemption began, when Jesus stepped down from His throne to die as a man." This just reiterates what I've been saying. He was born, stepping down from His heavenly throne, to DIE. He was born to grow up, only 33 years, to die.
I know some of us feel like that's what our life is about too. That we are born, we live, we die. But there is so much more behind all of this. Since Christ died for us, we can live forever. Not on this earth (Thankfully!!) but with Him in Heaven. God sent His son to be born in a manger so that He can die for our sins so that if we accept that simple (yet so complex and amazing!) gift, we can live with Him forever rather than the alternative.
Let me say that again.
God sent His SON to be born in a manger (not luxury) so that He can die for OUR sins (He had no sin of His own) so that if we ACCEPT the GIFT we can LIVE WITH HIM forever! He (God) came to earth so we (sinful people) could go to heaven!!
Are you completely amazed by this?!?
We had a special privilege on Sunday. It was Christmas and yet Sunday. What an honor to be together as a church family, not only celebrating his birth, but also His death on the cross. Or should I say it in reverse? Not only to worship Him for what He did on the cross, but also to remember His birth.
I'm finally getting it.
Yes, I'm glad all the Christmas stress is over and I'm ready to take down my trees and things. But I still am in awe over what Christ did for us. I'm amazed by His birth for us.
Yes, I would rather celebrate His birth is a simple way like we do for Easter. But it challenges me all the more to remember His birth all year and especially in the mist of Christmas chaos.
I'm still like Scrooge but I want to be like him when he says "I will honor Christmas in my heart and try to keep it all the year."
"All of our riches, we will count them as loss if we start at the manger, then go to the cross."
quotes from:
The Night That Christ Was Born by Kirk Franklin
Start at the Manger by Robert Sterling and Deborah Craig-Claar
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Struggles and Blessings
I can't believe it's been two months already. It's not as if God hasn't been working but life has just gotten a little crazy. It seems as if every week I would think "okay, a new week, it has to be less stressful and busy". But that has not been the case. Just this week I've been starting to feel like I can breathe again although I'm still busy and constantly have something that needs to be done. Today, though, this was a priority.
I'm not going to recap the entire last two months but I am going to let you enter my life of the last two weeks. Two weeks ago this past Sunday I sang the song Blessings by Laura Story. I had been working on it for a while and really felt led to do it that week. Little did I know that I'd need that song as a reminder every day for the next two weeks.
It was one thing after another. The first week it was a lot of personal things. My future step-son was getting into trouble a lot at school. It seemed like every day there was something new to deal with. On top of that there was church issues and more family stresses. Plus you have to add on that this was the week of Thanksgiving. Family comes, schedules are different and you're supposed to be happy go-lucky.
Two days before Thanksgiving my fiancé's grandparents were in a car accident. At first we heard that it was minor and they just had cuts and bruises. Over the next few days more and more things developed. There was a broken hip, rib, sternum, pelvic bone, etc. Thanksgiving day we were with my side of the family but our thoughts were elsewhere. His side had postponed Thanksgiving to a later date. We went to see his grandparents that evening to see how they were really doing. We didn't really get to talk to either of them because of tubes or they were out of it. It was sad to see. In 2002, I watched my Grandpa die in a hospital and ever since then I really struggle seeing others in bad conditions. But I was there for my fiance.
Black Friday was a highlight. My sisters, mom and I went shopping and came home to celebrate my mom's 60th birthday. Saturday was also good because we did my grandma's Christmas. Still, through it all, we kept getting updates on Grandma and Grandpa.
Sunday was the turning day. The day where you normally think that the week before is behind you it was just the opposite. It's when the injuries from the car accident were determined to be so bad that they were not going to make it. My fiancé's family had decided to do Thanksgiving that day not knowing what kind of day it was going to be. We were together and we ate but it was a very hard and sad day. Grandma and Grandpa were going to hospice. It was final.
On Monday, Grandma didn't even make it into the hospice room before she passed away. One day later Grandpa joined her. For them it is a blessing they went so close together but for us it's hard to say goodbye so quickly and to two loved ones. They were married for 72 years.
Also on that day one of my best friends sent me a text and said her brother also passed away. He had been dealing with cancer and his battle was done.
I can not describe to you how I felt with all this going on. I never got that refresh button from the week before so things just kept building on top of each other. I was not handling it all well.
It's hard when these things happen any time of the year but they seem especially hard during the holidays. You almost feel guilty that you aren't enjoying the season and feeling giddy. In fact, I put up my Christmas tree with my daycare kids. I had promised them we would after Thanksgiving and they remembered! They had no idea what was going on inside of me but it's my job to put the kids first. Even though I was just going through the motions, they had fun. I felt bad that I wasn't more into it but sometimes life just weighs us down.
This is when the song Blessings came back to mind. The last line in the chorus says "What if the trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?" So often in this life we expect blessings to come as good things and good things only. Having my sisters here and getting to shop and celebrate my mom were blessings. Having Christmas at my grandma's and having my uncle (who had just had a major work accident to where he can't walk) there was a blessing. But what about the other stuff? Are they blessings? Are they God's mercies? Sometimes we don't know until we can look back. Other times we never know.
Several people said that they wished God had just taken his grandparents at the accident. Yes, in ways that would have been easier. They wouldn't have suffered at all. The family wouldn't have gone through two weeks of an emotional roller coaster. But I wonder... would we have wanted that last time to say goodbye? Did we need this time to prepare to lose them? I don't know and I'm sure for each person it may be a different feeling.
We'll never understand God and that's a good thing. But thinking of trials as possible blessings helps. It at least helps to understand that we are not in control and to remember that God always has our best in mind.
"Blessings" by Laura Story
We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet, love us way too much to give us lesser things
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it take to know You're near?
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?
We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home
What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy?
What if trials of this life
the rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?
I love those words. And here is a poem that was found in his grandma's billfold that I find very fitting.
I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve.
I asked for prosperity and God gave me brains and the strength to work.
I asked for courage and God gave me danger to overcome.
I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help.
I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted.
I received everything I needed.
My prayer has been answered.
Anonymous
Struggles can be blessings. We just need to look to Him.
I'm not going to recap the entire last two months but I am going to let you enter my life of the last two weeks. Two weeks ago this past Sunday I sang the song Blessings by Laura Story. I had been working on it for a while and really felt led to do it that week. Little did I know that I'd need that song as a reminder every day for the next two weeks.
It was one thing after another. The first week it was a lot of personal things. My future step-son was getting into trouble a lot at school. It seemed like every day there was something new to deal with. On top of that there was church issues and more family stresses. Plus you have to add on that this was the week of Thanksgiving. Family comes, schedules are different and you're supposed to be happy go-lucky.
Two days before Thanksgiving my fiancé's grandparents were in a car accident. At first we heard that it was minor and they just had cuts and bruises. Over the next few days more and more things developed. There was a broken hip, rib, sternum, pelvic bone, etc. Thanksgiving day we were with my side of the family but our thoughts were elsewhere. His side had postponed Thanksgiving to a later date. We went to see his grandparents that evening to see how they were really doing. We didn't really get to talk to either of them because of tubes or they were out of it. It was sad to see. In 2002, I watched my Grandpa die in a hospital and ever since then I really struggle seeing others in bad conditions. But I was there for my fiance.
Black Friday was a highlight. My sisters, mom and I went shopping and came home to celebrate my mom's 60th birthday. Saturday was also good because we did my grandma's Christmas. Still, through it all, we kept getting updates on Grandma and Grandpa.
Sunday was the turning day. The day where you normally think that the week before is behind you it was just the opposite. It's when the injuries from the car accident were determined to be so bad that they were not going to make it. My fiancé's family had decided to do Thanksgiving that day not knowing what kind of day it was going to be. We were together and we ate but it was a very hard and sad day. Grandma and Grandpa were going to hospice. It was final.
On Monday, Grandma didn't even make it into the hospice room before she passed away. One day later Grandpa joined her. For them it is a blessing they went so close together but for us it's hard to say goodbye so quickly and to two loved ones. They were married for 72 years.
Also on that day one of my best friends sent me a text and said her brother also passed away. He had been dealing with cancer and his battle was done.
I can not describe to you how I felt with all this going on. I never got that refresh button from the week before so things just kept building on top of each other. I was not handling it all well.
It's hard when these things happen any time of the year but they seem especially hard during the holidays. You almost feel guilty that you aren't enjoying the season and feeling giddy. In fact, I put up my Christmas tree with my daycare kids. I had promised them we would after Thanksgiving and they remembered! They had no idea what was going on inside of me but it's my job to put the kids first. Even though I was just going through the motions, they had fun. I felt bad that I wasn't more into it but sometimes life just weighs us down.
This is when the song Blessings came back to mind. The last line in the chorus says "What if the trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?" So often in this life we expect blessings to come as good things and good things only. Having my sisters here and getting to shop and celebrate my mom were blessings. Having Christmas at my grandma's and having my uncle (who had just had a major work accident to where he can't walk) there was a blessing. But what about the other stuff? Are they blessings? Are they God's mercies? Sometimes we don't know until we can look back. Other times we never know.
Several people said that they wished God had just taken his grandparents at the accident. Yes, in ways that would have been easier. They wouldn't have suffered at all. The family wouldn't have gone through two weeks of an emotional roller coaster. But I wonder... would we have wanted that last time to say goodbye? Did we need this time to prepare to lose them? I don't know and I'm sure for each person it may be a different feeling.
We'll never understand God and that's a good thing. But thinking of trials as possible blessings helps. It at least helps to understand that we are not in control and to remember that God always has our best in mind.
"Blessings" by Laura Story
We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet, love us way too much to give us lesser things
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it take to know You're near?
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?
We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home
What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy?
What if trials of this life
the rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?
I love those words. And here is a poem that was found in his grandma's billfold that I find very fitting.
I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve.
I asked for prosperity and God gave me brains and the strength to work.
I asked for courage and God gave me danger to overcome.
I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help.
I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted.
I received everything I needed.
My prayer has been answered.
Anonymous
Struggles can be blessings. We just need to look to Him.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
The Best Medicine
A few months ago I was in Walmart. I was actually in the bathroom in Walmart. Already in there were two young girls and their mom. They were all giggling and laughing about something. As they all finished and left the bathroom, they were still laughing. It reminded me of being a kid and how my sisters and I would get laughing about the silliest things. This was especially true when we were on one of our vacations.
I walked out of the bathroom smiling so I explained to my fiance what I had just observed. Seeing them enjoying themselves had put me in a good mood where normally at Walmart I'm just wanting to get our stuff and be done.
As we walked about Walmart, running our errands, I saw this little family several more times. I even commented that they must be on vacation because they act very stress-free. Every time they made me smile and I just wanted to join in their simple fun.
That's the point. It was simple.
Life seems simple for kids. Kids enjoy life. At times my three sisters and I would dress up and pose for a picture. But in one particular picture I am laughing. My head is tilt back and you can tell that something is really cracking me up. I can't help but smile at the picture and wish I was there again.
For this family though, it wasn't just the girls having a good time. It was also the mom. More often you see the scene of kids having fun and the parents yelling at them because they're 'messing around'.
The more I thought about it the more I realized that I, too, get caught up in life. I go through the motions of just trying to get things done and move on to the next thing I have to do. Why do we do that to ourselves?
About once a year my sisters, mom, grandma and I get together for a girls weekend. Oh man do we laugh!! That one weekend can be such a stress-reliever for me.
Why do we have to wait til we're on vacation or having a girls weekend though? Yes, those times are extra fun and that's great. But should we just go through the other days in life with a frown and hurrying onto the next stress? No!
That day at Walmart opened my eyes to all kinds of things I was missing but most important, Laughter. They say it's the best medicine and I truly feel it is.
Think about it.
When you're mad and someone makes you laugh.. are you still mad? If you're crying and something makes you laugh.. is your cry different? Think about other times where laughter is the last thing you're feeling. Would laughter help?
That leads me to ask... Do you laugh? I mean REALLY laugh?
There's a difference between kind of chuckling and having a truly deep down, belly laugh. There's also a difference between laughing at a funny text or email or even a funny movie and laughing with people. When you laugh at an email or a movie, the laughing doesn't last long. When you're with others and you're all laughing, it can go on for a while. Right?
I encourage you today to laugh. And laugh with those around you. Look at each moment and decide to laugh.
Sometimes my fiance thinks it's funny to drive the cart crazy in Walmart or the grocery store. He runs around and swerves in and out. I used to get so annoyed with this and say, "Really? We need to get done!" Well guess what. We didn't NEED to get done and he was enjoying life. So now I try not to be annoyed but laugh with him. I slow down and enjoy the moment.
That family from Walmart that day was on vacation. As it turned out they were parked right next to us and they had an out-of-state license plate. I still watched them as they laughed into their van. I wondered if they were like that when they weren't on vacation. But then I realized it didn't matter. I want to enjoy life, vacation or not.
So Laugh. And Laugh Hard!
I walked out of the bathroom smiling so I explained to my fiance what I had just observed. Seeing them enjoying themselves had put me in a good mood where normally at Walmart I'm just wanting to get our stuff and be done.
As we walked about Walmart, running our errands, I saw this little family several more times. I even commented that they must be on vacation because they act very stress-free. Every time they made me smile and I just wanted to join in their simple fun.
That's the point. It was simple.
Life seems simple for kids. Kids enjoy life. At times my three sisters and I would dress up and pose for a picture. But in one particular picture I am laughing. My head is tilt back and you can tell that something is really cracking me up. I can't help but smile at the picture and wish I was there again.
For this family though, it wasn't just the girls having a good time. It was also the mom. More often you see the scene of kids having fun and the parents yelling at them because they're 'messing around'.
The more I thought about it the more I realized that I, too, get caught up in life. I go through the motions of just trying to get things done and move on to the next thing I have to do. Why do we do that to ourselves?
About once a year my sisters, mom, grandma and I get together for a girls weekend. Oh man do we laugh!! That one weekend can be such a stress-reliever for me.
Why do we have to wait til we're on vacation or having a girls weekend though? Yes, those times are extra fun and that's great. But should we just go through the other days in life with a frown and hurrying onto the next stress? No!
That day at Walmart opened my eyes to all kinds of things I was missing but most important, Laughter. They say it's the best medicine and I truly feel it is.
Think about it.
When you're mad and someone makes you laugh.. are you still mad? If you're crying and something makes you laugh.. is your cry different? Think about other times where laughter is the last thing you're feeling. Would laughter help?
That leads me to ask... Do you laugh? I mean REALLY laugh?
There's a difference between kind of chuckling and having a truly deep down, belly laugh. There's also a difference between laughing at a funny text or email or even a funny movie and laughing with people. When you laugh at an email or a movie, the laughing doesn't last long. When you're with others and you're all laughing, it can go on for a while. Right?
I encourage you today to laugh. And laugh with those around you. Look at each moment and decide to laugh.
Sometimes my fiance thinks it's funny to drive the cart crazy in Walmart or the grocery store. He runs around and swerves in and out. I used to get so annoyed with this and say, "Really? We need to get done!" Well guess what. We didn't NEED to get done and he was enjoying life. So now I try not to be annoyed but laugh with him. I slow down and enjoy the moment.
That family from Walmart that day was on vacation. As it turned out they were parked right next to us and they had an out-of-state license plate. I still watched them as they laughed into their van. I wondered if they were like that when they weren't on vacation. But then I realized it didn't matter. I want to enjoy life, vacation or not.
So Laugh. And Laugh Hard!
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Why Blog?
I have never done a blog before and honestly don't know much about them. I want to share why I'm starting one now and what I'm planning to blog about.
Over the past few years I have really felt God asking me to share my story, my life story. My life isn't so terribly different from everyone else but maybe I've gone through something just so God can use me to encourage you.
I started a book and it's still a work in progress. I'm content with still working on that and trying to get it published. But in the meantime I still feel that God doesn't want me to just sit by and wait. Along with this I feel like He's leading me to speak... specifically to women. I'm willing but I haven't felt like He's shown me a good way to start that.
It's possible that through these blogs opportunities will arise for me. That's up to Him. My focus will be more on you as I write.
This blog isn't going to be the normal updating on my life or what I did last weekend. It's more about sharing my convictions, struggles or encouragements. It's thoughts I have or things that happen that I feel like could help someone else. Some may convict you and some may encourage you. Some may be really serious and some may be more lighthearted. Most of them will have spiritual content in them. I'm not ashamed of that nor do I apologize. Christ is center in my life and therefore He'll come out in a lot of my topics. Some more than others I'm sure.
If you're reading this and wonder about a life with Christ, please ask. That is the most important topic.
Since I'm just doing this as things arise, I don't know how often I'll post. But please, if there is any topic you'd like me to discuss or you want my opinion (I've got lots of them!), email me at delightinlord@hotmail.com. You can feel free to email me too if I've encouraged you in some way or you want to discuss something more specifically or personally.
I want you to feel free to share my blog with others as well. I'm an open person and I think God is wanting to use that.
Please know that I in no way think I'm better, more spiritual, or am closer to God than any of you. It's not about that. I'm simply using a gift that I feel God has given me.
Let's enjoy a journey together.
Over the past few years I have really felt God asking me to share my story, my life story. My life isn't so terribly different from everyone else but maybe I've gone through something just so God can use me to encourage you.
I started a book and it's still a work in progress. I'm content with still working on that and trying to get it published. But in the meantime I still feel that God doesn't want me to just sit by and wait. Along with this I feel like He's leading me to speak... specifically to women. I'm willing but I haven't felt like He's shown me a good way to start that.
It's possible that through these blogs opportunities will arise for me. That's up to Him. My focus will be more on you as I write.
This blog isn't going to be the normal updating on my life or what I did last weekend. It's more about sharing my convictions, struggles or encouragements. It's thoughts I have or things that happen that I feel like could help someone else. Some may convict you and some may encourage you. Some may be really serious and some may be more lighthearted. Most of them will have spiritual content in them. I'm not ashamed of that nor do I apologize. Christ is center in my life and therefore He'll come out in a lot of my topics. Some more than others I'm sure.
If you're reading this and wonder about a life with Christ, please ask. That is the most important topic.
Since I'm just doing this as things arise, I don't know how often I'll post. But please, if there is any topic you'd like me to discuss or you want my opinion (I've got lots of them!), email me at delightinlord@hotmail.com. You can feel free to email me too if I've encouraged you in some way or you want to discuss something more specifically or personally.
I want you to feel free to share my blog with others as well. I'm an open person and I think God is wanting to use that.
Please know that I in no way think I'm better, more spiritual, or am closer to God than any of you. It's not about that. I'm simply using a gift that I feel God has given me.
Let's enjoy a journey together.
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